Waiting on the Lord
About two years ago the Lord spoke to me clearly about some things related to my calling. At that moment I was ready to give everything to Jesus and throw myself to any challenge he would give me.
I knew what He had ask, but I didn’t have clarity on the timing of things. That frustrated me so much at that moment! For months I would ask the Lord if it was now the time?… but I would feel a silence from Him.
I could ask Him about other stuff in my life and he would speak and he would even use me to speak to other people but in the area that I was asking the most… pure silence. I would also try to make arrangements and plans about what I thought He was asking me to do and nothing would work out. That frustrated me all the more!
At one point...
I decided to make a fast and really inquire the Lord on this. I was desperate and I wanted answers. So in that fast the Lord encounter me in a powerful way and He spoke to me specifically Psalm 46:10.
The Lord spoke to my heart about waiting on Him. He would say over and over again: “Wait and see that I am your God, Wait and see how I am going to show myself to you. I am faithful and I will do what I said that I would do.”
"He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10
What a word right?!! Honestly, at the moment I could feel the presence of the Lord so strongly that I received it without thinking much about it. But after the fast ended I thought to myself: WHAAT!!!! I have to keep waiting???!!
Even though the Lord spoke very distinctively about this, I struggled with that word: “wait“. I didn’t want to wait, I wanted things fast!
After that experience I had in the fast, days turned into week, weeks into months, and months have turned into years… and I’m still waiting.
"Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!" Psalm 27:14
Many people talk about the words they have been given by God and the fulfillment of those words, but rarely people speak about the in-between season.
I have to say that for me this in-between season has been hard. I have wrestled in the in-between with feeling misunderstood, lonely, desperate, frustrated, ready to give up… and the list could keep going on.
But even while feeling like that I showed up every week to meet Him even in my weakness, because I knew He was the only one who could sustain me in this season.
He is a perfect leader
If you look at other versions of Psalm 46:10 it says: Be quiet, stop fighting, let go of your concerns, let be and be still. Wow! God is so kind and direct at the same time.
Sometimes we can know what the Lord is telling us but we need to go through a process of surrendering our internal fight, and that might take some time. Even if we have good intentions that doesn’t mean our hearts have surrendered completely to the will of God. We might want to do things for Him but he might not be asking us for that at the moment.
This all reminds me of Psalm 23 where it says: “He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters”. We might not want to quiet down and take it slow but in the quietness is where he speaks and he heals. In a world where everything is running so fast and given to us so easily, the Lord asks us to slow down and wait for Him.
"The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake." Psalm 23:1-3
"... And see that I am your God"
After some time had passed I looked back and I realized that I put to much attention to the “waiting” part, and because of this in some occasions I forgot to enjoy the moments the Lord was gifting me.
I then noticed I put less attentions to the part where He said to me “see that I am your God”- which I think was the main point. When I began to change my perspective my heart started to change.
The amount of encounters, revelation and deepening in God in this season has been incredible. I have come to want to stay hidden in Him forever; I just know that Him is enough for me.
Whatever God wants me to do in the next season will come in due time but in the meantime Im going to enjoy Him where I am at.
"Be strong, and let your heart take heart, all you who hope in the Lord" Psalm 31:24
Words of Encouragement
Just like me you might be in a waiting season. It might look very different for you but nevertheless is still a waiting season.
I want to encourage you to keep pressing in, keep showing up to meet Him. The end goal is not what’s waiting on the other side of this season but Him. To know Him is our end goal!!
Grace grace to you Friend! May the Lord reveal Himself in this season to you. You are doing well, don’t give up!
"But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint". Isaiah 40:31
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Hi everyone! my name is Gabriella but you can call me Gaby.
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I created this space with the purpose of sharing what the Lord has put in my heart in a way that is as real and genuine as possible. I want to invite you into my journey of following Jesus and I hope I can inspire you in your journey of following Him too.
